Friday, August 31, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Then all of a sudden I felt a sharp stinging sensation. So I screamed, shook my pant leg out...and out fell a dazed bee. In total shock of what just happened, I stood there and curiously watched the bee clumsily wabble around the sidewalk while my thigh throbbed with pain.
Monday, August 27, 2007
"Should I go to the musical with Jenni, or go camping? It's tough...I really love those darn musicals, but
It's all right, Will was really sweet about it and said he would come with me on Friday to the play, but I knew he would have more fun camping. So he went with Aaron, and then I slept over at Erika's this time so I wasn't alone. We watched chick flicks and ate ice cream and stayed up talking until 2am.
Saturday and Sunday we spent at my parents house - as my younger brother, Stephen, was up visting from Utah with his wife, Ileana and baby daughter Mackenzie.
One little baby just loved being in the kayak!
Will and I
Stephen and Ileana
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Okay for all you confused people out there - please scroll down and read previous blog entitled "Fishing for Fertility" and then nod your head and say "Ahhhhh okay I get it." Thanks.
I just wanted to give the update. This week I underwent some more testing - blah. Can I just say I'm really tired of getting poked and prodded?? Will felt so bad for me, he told me after my last test on Monday that he would take me wherever I wanted to eat. Duh - the only thing I could think of, off-hand, was a DQ cookie dough blizzard. Wish granted.
So....there can only be a few conclusions. The big one that pops into our heads is that the man upstairs isn't ready to send us children yet.
The other one is that vague unexplained reasoning why many people don't get pregnant: STRESS. And yeah I do sort of have a very stressful job.
At this point, we are very happy to hear that we are both in great health though. So at least we know that there isn't something "wrong" with us. In the meantime, I have a busy fall coming up with several concerts, some film-scoring projects and Will and I have been considering investing in some real estate. I would love it if I could replace my management job with my music, which is why I'm booking up my schedule to perform a lot this fall/winter - to see if it's even possible.
Till next blogging,
Monday, August 20, 2007
Colton & ChrisIn order to sneak away on a Friday night of all nights, we had to agree that our wives (Jenni, Jen, & Jenny, how ironic) could get together and indulge in tasty food and to die for deserts at the Cheesecake Factory.
And the wonderful thing about this Guys night out? We wouldn't have traded it for what our wives were being treated to for anything. We were as happy and content as a bunch of boys on their first Boy Scout outing.
After arriving at our destination and setting up the tent in the dark and warming our chilled insides with a watered down powder dinner, we slipped into our tent to enjoy a night sleeping on the ground.Chris supplied the 4 person mobile shelter, enough room so the three us didn't have to wake up too close to one another.
I'm not sure if I wanted to be up for the sunrise or if my body was just too sore after rolling from shoulder to shoulder all night. Maybe I was being kicked out for snoring, either way I ended up being up for the sunrise. It turned out to be a beauty.Grizzly Adams at 5:30 am
After some more powdery, watered down breakfast we took off on a small hike (this time without the packs) to view some more lakes. It was really pretty.
Colton & Chris soaking in the view above Rachel Lake.
Will on top of the world (or at least Rachel Lake)
Will falling off the top of the world (or at least pretending)
More Pretty Flowers
Lots of Pretty flowers (I must have been missing Jenni about now)
After our little day hike it was all down hill to the car. It's a lot easier hiking DOWN Mt. Everest, then UP it.
We stopped at some waterfalls.
Chris even found a hornets nest.
Lots of different Fungi
We made it back down to the car covered in dirt and sweat and enough outdoor memories to plaster smiles on our tired, overworked bodies only to realize we were the lucky ones who didn't get our window smashed in and car stripped of all valuables left inside. What a welcome back to reality other campers where going to get.
We then headed home, with the hopes of sympathy and compansion from our wives to nurse our wounded bodies back to health.
Awe, the perfect ending to a perfect guys night out! Thanks Chris & Colton!! We'll have to do it again next time the Jen's are craving gossip, chick flicks, and chocolate deserts!
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Well for all you inquiring minds - here is what you've been waiting for!
We have kept to ourselves about the subject for the most part, simply because well it's not exactly something you wear printed across a tshirt in bright yellow letters "Attention everyone: We plan to have kids on _________."
But as most of you know, when you're one of the only married couples in the ward without children people tend to ask you the question. And then once they find out that
Right around our 1 year anniversary mark people started asking us about kids. A LOT. Like pretty much every time they'd see us, the subject was brought up. And Will and I would just always joke around and say "We can't have kids" or "We're infertile" just to evade the questions and not give anyone direct answers, etc... NEVER thinking that infertility would actually be an issue down the road.
It was really hard for me - I even sometimes avoided hanging out with people because I was afraid that the subject would be brought up yet again and I was tired of trying to defend ourselves. We would rehearse with each other what our pre-determined answers would be for the night before heading out to a social evening/outing, but after a while you run out of answers and you just don't want to deal with it.
So yeah, it's been kinda hard. It's hard to go to church and see all the babies, or to get at least an email every month or so from a friend who is announcing that they are pregnant. (but I've always been happy for them!! :) I think what the hardest part for me is, from the female perspective, is waiting...and waiting. And then you find out that yet again you're not pregnant for the umpteenth time you've tried and of course at the same time you feel like crap, have pms, and are majorly hormonal. LOL
That day was today for me. For the 18th month in a row.
Which brings me to the reason I'm writing this blog. I know it's a serious subject and if you're reading this you might be wondering why the heck Jenni is divulging in the matter. But we are all adults here. To be quite honest, as Will and I have been going through this process we've discovered many other couples who struggle with the same issues. Off hand, I can count 4 of our close friends who are dealing with this as well. And these are like actual friends we hang out with, not just people we casually know. So I know it hits close to home for many.
What I'm speaking of is infertility. Let me just upfront say that we certainly hope we are not infertile, but "technically" that is what our doctors have labeled us since we've been trying to conceive for at least 1 year without success. We've been trying for a year and a half. It doesn't mean you're infertile as in you have no chance of having kids, but just that you should have had some luck on your own by now and since you haven't, chances are you need some medical help to make it happen.
I just thought I would be open about it for once. I asked Will if he would mind me sharing our experiences in our blogs, and he fully supported me. I think it will be good, and if there is anyone else reading this who feels alone in this - well don't. And I don't want this to be all serious and stuff...
Which is why I will tell you about our fish =) Everyone else always posts blogs about their kids, so we'll post about ours: Our fish. Haha.
Over the next several months, Will and I will be going through the necessary steps to do testing, etc. for fertility. This might sound weird, but the frustrating thing right now is that Will and I are very healthy people - but it makes it harder for doctors to find out the causes as to why you aren't conceiving. We both are active, have great blood results, my girly doctor says everything so far looks normal and healthy, great cardiovascular systems, no signs of cancer or diabetes, etc etc etc.
Part of me wishes that they would just hurry up and find something wrong somewhere just so we would know what the problem is. But the more tests that they do and the more they continue to find nothing wrong...well it just means you have to do MORE tests. (P.S. My mom thinks it's stress related and that I should quit my job - haha).
I go back in later this month for an ultrasound to make sure all my girly insides are normal (more comprehensive than just a GYN annual). If all is normal, then they have to go in through my bellybutton with a scope and do some more testing. (My friend just had this done and found it very awkward and painful for weeks afterwards so I'm not looking forward to that). And then of course, there are also series of tests that the Will has to go through too. But we won't go into that. LOL (for once the guy can feel apart of the whole process! haha!). If they still don't find things wrong, then they start perscribing fertility medicine and the last resort would be invitro fertilization (test tube babies), which we pray we will never have to do because of the expense (which insurance doesn't cover). But we will cross that bridge if we come to it and would gladly do it if it is our only option.
Phew. Okay so I got ALL that off my chest.
I want to say though, that I married the most wonderful, understanding, fun, patient man in the world. We have a blast together and we try to make the most of our "alone" time right now while we can before kids come (which is why you seeing us playing so much on our blogs). I know that one day we will be blessed with children when the time is right - even if it takes the help of doctors to make it possible.
I sometimes fear that others might think we are "putting off" having children so that we can advance in our careers or do whatever. That certainly isn't true. Hello I just turned 30 and had hoped to of been a mother before that milestone =) I just read the other day that I've already passed my best childbearing years!! Haha! But we also aren't sitting around crying about it. We try to play hard and often, dream big and work to make the dreams come true while we can and then when little ones come our way we will be so happy that they can join us and bring even more joy into our home.
Okay so maybe we did cry over all the money we wasted on unnecessary birth control during the first year and a half of our marriage, but oh well! LOL.
So I'll be posting every so often about how this is all going for us - if anyone cares to know. If not, you can skip those posts.
Alright - well that's all the seriousness for one blog I can handle. Next blog - I'll report on my upcoming boring weekend of working in the office while Will goes backpacking with the guys. (But he doesn't know that Friday night all of us wives are going to The Cheesecake Factory! Sshhhhhh don't tell!)
P.S. I just read my blog and thought Gosh I hope no one thinks we were wanting sympathy. That's not it at all. We just wanted to be open with everyone - and it has actually relieved a lot of burden off me - so that I don't feel like it has to be hush-hush or if people wonder anymore I can just say "here it how it is".
Monday, August 13, 2007
(we followed this car for a while and just couldn't figure out what was on top of it).
Ah, here we go. The car ride:
LOL my eyes look squirly, but it's because I'm looking at the picture while Will's looking at the lense like he's supposed to, and I'm not.
Riding the ferry
...which was interesting I might add, because Seattle recieved some terrorist threats regarding the ferry system, so our ferry ride was accompanied by many guys wearing bullet proof vests. It was definitely not the normal ferry experience.
More wildlife....cute at that.
Looking out across the Puget Sound
Joe - telling the story behind one of his songs
Joe just released his 3rd album. Check it out - you won't be disappointed. (link above)
A tiny little town where we got on the ferry, named Southworth.
Coincidence: Southworth is my maiden name.
And yes I know I look stunning. Wouldn't you after not showering for 2 1/2 days?
Monday, August 6, 2007
Will and I loaded up with piles of blankets and pillows - all excited to sprawl out on the lawn and snuggle during that nights showing of "Top Gun"....but alas, showed up and found it was concrete. Yuck.
2 hours and sore bums later we jetted. As always, we had fun with our friends though. Thanks Erika for bringing the lemon pound cake. LOL It was yummy.
Friday, August 3, 2007
My husband, who has successfully managed to dodge the bishopric's eye for over a year, has received a calling in our ward. Finally. :) Please welcome the Benson Hill Ward's newest "Emergency Preparedness Coordinator".
I think he will do really well in this calling. It's totally up his alley. Gosh - bishops are really inspired huh!