Monday, April 7, 2008

I miss...

...a whole lot of stuff right now. I am having one of those days where I wish the end was closer in sight. Will and I are now less than 9 weeks away from our baby's duedate, and it just seems like it can't get here fast enough.

Basically - I've officially reached a point where I'm uncomfortable, like 24/7.

I feel like I've done a pretty good job of dealing with all the pregnancy symptoms for the last 8 months, but like I told Will last night, I'm just "tired of it" now. I want my old body back. Some things that have just become a part of everyday life for me have now started to really impose. Things like acid reflux, achey hips, dislocated ribs, lack of energy, extra weight, etc.

Will keeps reminding me that after the baby is here I will say "It was so worth it!", and yes I know I probably will say that. And others have told me that the memories of all the daily stuff you go through when you're pregnant will fade too. But it doesn't really help me right now while I'm going through it.

But maybe this is the Lord's way of humbling me.

I mean, I went 30 years without breaking any bones (except one toe), I've never been seriously ill, never had major surgery or even stayed in a hospital, I've always been athletic and done a variety of outdoor adventures. So I think I have been very blessed. Maybe my pregnancy has been a bit rough so that I would realize I wasn't invincible.

One thing is for sure though, it has helped me to realize a few things that I am grateful for. These are things that I used to just take for granted. They may sound simple, but to me right now they are huge. (Granted, most of these are things I also miss right now).

I am thankful for:

A good night's sleep

Being able to bend over and pick things up,
to touch my toes, put shoes on, shave my legs, etc.

My legs -
though I used to complain about wishing they were thinner, I am now grateful that I just have healthy ones that can carry me up stairs, walk, and run.

Being able to hug Will and squeeze each other to death
(no bellies in the way)

Playing the piano
(which I haven't been able to much of lately)

A good mind and a keen memory
(hello, can we say prego brain?)

Motivation - to do things, get things done
(we haven't even started the nursury yet and this is what we should have been doing this last weekend - moving furniture out of the office LOL).

The desire to actually clean my home, and cook.

All right everyone, thanks for letting me share my feelings. I'm super excited to meet this little guy who's been kicking me everyday, so don't misunderstand me. I would do this ALL OVER again. But for now, I'm just trying to endure to the end. :)

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Anonymous said...

I know just how you feel! I am sure something will come your way soon to cheer you up! And just think this is one day closer to when you are done! Yay! Love you-keep your chin up! Love, N
PS I got my new blog background at: fun!

Heather said...

You are at the point where I have a breakdown because I feel like i can't take it another day but it seems so far away. Life because almost unbearable about the last 6-8 weeks. I am feeling sorry for you :( I was just there so I remember...

I believe the reasons it gets like this is so when it is time you are begging for a little baby to come and disrupt your whole life :)

I just wish we could get some good sleep before the baby comes. Instead your body "prepares" for tose every 3 hour wakings. Boo hoo.

Jenni Thomas said...

I know!! Its like just when you need sleep the most, you can't get it. I wake up at least once an hour either from hip pain or because I have to use the bathroom. Last night, it was more like every 45 minutes. Its rediculous.

I keep telling Will, that when May comes, I plan on doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING the entire month. lol.

NelsonFam said...

Cute post - Best of luck getting through it. I feel for ya :)

Kim N said...

I came across your blog through another blog and I love your music and I also live in the Northwest so I have been following it for a few weeks.

My fourth baby is four months old now and reading your post nearly brought tears to my eyes remembering those last few weeks of pregnancy! Only those that have gone through it can understand. I prefer labor and delivery to the last few weeks of pregnancy...maybe that is what helps us make it through childbirth.

I told my husband I could see us having another child, but I can't bear the thought of being pregnant again.

(and i hate people who say, "I LOVE every part of being pregnant!", and I don't believe them for a minute!)

Janna Grossnickle said...

I know how you feel. I have been there twice and on my way for a third time! I strongly feel that the extreme uncomfort that we feel at the end of a pregnancy is part of Hevenly Fathers plan. If we were comfortable and content at the end how willing would we be to go through Labor and deliery. Not very! Good Luck

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