Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Still Nothing...

Well, as of today there is still nothing exciting to report in the baby department. Tomorrow I go in for what is supposed to be my "last" doctor appointment. My duedate is this Sunday, June 8th. Hopefully I will get some good news, but I kind of doubt it. I'm under the impression that my body has no idea what to do to go into labor and I'm going to be pregnant forever.

I realize that I still have 4 days until the DD, but for those of you who have gone through pregnancy you know that this date is just a day on the calendar and from weeks 38 - possibly 42 you are miserable and just wanting it to be overwith.

I subscribe to a pregnancy forum where all the women are due in June. Every day I get on there and read that someone else (who is due after me) has had their baby, or someone is experiencing contractions, or someone's water broke, etc, etc, etc. I have to admit it is a little discouraging as I wake up everyday hoping that today will be the day, but then I go to bed every night still pregnant. I don't even know what a contraction feels like, my water has not broke...I have no hope.

Best case scenario: I will go to my Dr appt tomorrow and she will tell me that I am fully effaced and dialating and it could be any day now. Or better yet she could tell me to go to the hospital because I'm so ready (I'm laughing as I type that because I just know that won't happen).

Worst case scenario: I have made no improvements, yet again (which would make 3 appts in a row) and she says "See you next week". Next week I have an appoinment scheduled for June 11th, 3 days after my duedate, which, when I scheduled it way back when, I laughed thinking there was no way I would even need to schedule that appointment because for sure the baby would be here by then. The latest I will possibly have the baby is on June 18th because my doctor promised me she would not let me go more than 10 days overdue.

I am just depressed though. I have tried so many things to try to get labor started - and to no avail. I'm really miserably uncomfortable, swollen, cranky and just ready to be done with this. I honestly don't know how some women go through this multiple times. Kudos to them - my highest respect for sure.


Sandy said...

They come when they want to come. Believe me, I know from experience. All my babies were on time or slightly before the due date until Kristi. She was due the 15th of Sept. and I was way excited because her bd would be 9/15, my mom's 9/16 and mine 9/17.
I didn't want it (we didn't even know the sex till they were born) to come on my mom's bd or mine so when she didn't come on the 15th I was glad to get the 16th and 17th over with, but then she still didn't come until the 20th. I jumped on the tramp and rode behind Dan on the motorcycle through the potato fields, but to no avail. I even told the Lord I wasn't going to pray anymore. But then she came when she wanted to on the 20th and it was just perfect for her. Besides, she was my smallest at 5 lbs.13 oz. She needed all the weight/time she could get. Such is... Smile, you're not in charge on this one. "-)

Heather said...

It's all worth it :) And you will do it again too! Hard to imagine but you will realize that the sacrafice is worth is. Sorry to hear about your brother - my prayers are with him and your family. Good Luck tomorrow at the appointment :)

Kate said...

I'm so sorry Jenni - I really do know how you feel! I hope things start moving right along for you - and your brother is in our prayers!